I wanna do something about it

I want to do a lot of things. The other day, I made a list of the goals I have for my life. Some of them are long-term (visit Europe), some of them are short-term (learn HTML). Lately, I've really been thinking about things I want to do to influence my community in positive ways.

Now that I'm back in school, I feel like anything is possible (with God's help). One year ago, I was in a career in management and starting to get burned out on my job. 25 days out of the month, I'd say I was having a miserable day (that included weekends). I wanted to go back to school for a long time, but I didn't think I'd be able to because I thought it would be too hard to give up a good, steady salary.

God has really come through for me. He's shown me how to trust Him, by providing for my financial needs and my emotional needs. You see, I used to get a lot of satisfaction from my job and my title. Giving that up was kind of hard. Looking back on that, I can see how God is working on me to get rid of my pride. That's awesome!

I am so much happier now that I'm back in school. From time to time I have some slight twinges of regret. For example, yesterday at work I learned that someone who used to be a peer of mine got a different job with the company. It's a somewhat prestigious job, too - one that I would have liked to have (back then, anyway). So I felt some jealousy and regret. Then I started to think about whether I would be happier in that job than I am now, and the answer was an emphatic, "No."

Now, I don't believe that being happy is the most important thing in life. I realize I'm going against the grain on this (after all, what's more American than life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness?) But it all boils down to what God wants for me. And nowhere does He command me to pursue happiness for happiness' sake. Instead, if I love the Lord, I will keep His commandments.

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"If you love me, keep my commandments."
Jesus Christ
John 14:15.